The truth about males & females.

So my friends boyfriend always has a go at the fact I have male friends & one in particular. He always insists that he is either wants to have sex with me or must most definately be gay - essentially he does not believe males and females can't be just friends. Tonight he sent me a quote which made me giggle. It does ultimately have some truth.



DragonflyBlade21: A woman has a close male friend. This means that he is probably interested in her, which is why he hangs around so much. She sees him strictly as a friend. This always starts out with, you're a great guy, but I don't like you in that way. This is roughly the equivalent for the guy of going to a job interview and the company saying, You have a great resume, you have all the qualifications we are looking for, but we're not going to hire you. We will, however, use your resume as the basis for comparison for all other applicants. But, we're going to hire somebody who is far less qualified and is probably an alcoholic. And if he doesn't work out, we'll hire somebody else, but still not you. In fact, we will never hire you. But we will call you from time to time to complain about the person that we hired.



until next time,
much love xoxo

From The Edge Of The Deep Green Sea - The Cure

Every time we do this I fall for her,
wave after wave after wave, it's all for her I know this can't be wrong I say
(and I’ll lie to keep her happy)as long as I know that you know
that today I belong, right here with you, right here with you...

and so we watch the sun come up from the edge of the deep green sea
and she listens like her head's on fire, like she wants to believe in me, so I try
put your hands in the sky, surrender, remember, we'll be here forever and we'll never say goodbye...

I’ve never been so colourfully-see-through-head before
I’ve never been so wonderfully-me-you-want-some-more
and all I want is to keep it like this you and me alone
a secret kiss and don't go home don't go away
don't let this end please stay not just for today

never never never never never let me go she says
hole me like this for a hundred thousand million days
but suddenly she slows and looks down at my breaking face, why do you cry? What did I say? But it's just rain I smile brushing my tears away...

I wish I could just stop, I know another moment will break my heart
too many tears, too many times, too many years I’ve cried over you

how much more can we use it up? Drink it dry? Take this drug?
Looking for something forever gone but something we will always want?

Why why why are you letting me go? she says, I feel you pulling back
I feel you changing shape... and just as I’m breaking free
she hangs herself in front of me,slips her dress like a flag to the floor
and hands in the sky, surrenders it all...

I wish I could just stop, I know another moment will break my heart
too many tears, too many times, too many years I’ve cried for you
it's always the same, wake up in the rain, head in pain, hung in shame
a different name, same old game, love in vain
and miles and miles and miles and miles and miles away from home again...

It was by chance that I picked up The Cure's album Wish ('92) and popped it into my cd player and let it run through and for some reason for a change I found myself really listening to the lyrics. There is something about this song that just felt so... the only word I can think of is profound. It just made me feel. I hope you listen to it and it moves you as much as it did me.

In that moment, I swear we were infinite

I thought it was about time I blogged again well mostly I felt like writing a diary entry so I figured I should blog it. My life is full of goodbyes (or see ya laters) which never appear to get easier and even though I get one more day with one of my best friends (he's from the states here on holidays) when he returns from the coast before his flight back home part of me already knows he is gone, two years of separation we have remained friends and I don't doubt we will keep it up again but it doesn't hurt any less that is for sure.

Anyway I thought I would share with you the mix tape tracks I put together for him, some sentimental, some make me happy, some are rediculous, some he had recomended me and some I had recomended him. All in all one of the best moments and one of my happiest in awhile was hanging out at one of my friends places and there was four of us, my American bffl included and we sung along to most of the songs, I can't sing at all but it was the best feeling sharing those songs and those lyrics. I guess you just had to be there.


1. Crooked Teeth - Death Cab For Cutie
2. Caring is Creepy - The Shins
3. Postcard - An Horse
4. In the Aeroplane over the Sea - Neutral Milk Hotel
5. Wagon Wheel - Old Crow Medicine Show
6. Fake Plastic Trees - Radiohead
7. Our Own Way - Sparkadia
8. Your Ex-Lover is Dead - Stars
9. Seize the Day - Wax Tailor
10. Hear me out - Frou Frou
11. Bittersweet Symphony - (cover) Coldplay ft Richard Ashcroft
12. Dance, dance, dance - Lykke Li
13. What am I supposed to be doing? - The Bedroom Philosopher
14. Strange Overtones - David Byrne & Brian Eno
15. It's A Fact (Printed Stained) - Matt & Kim
16. Flippers - Art vs Science
17. Walking on a Dream - Empire of the Sun
18. Breathe - Telepopmusik
19. I'm so postmodern - The Bedroom Philosopher
20. Ever fallen in love (with someone you shouldn't've) - Buzzcocks
21. Everybody's got the same insecurities as you - The Bedroom Philosopher
22. Why can't I be you? - The Cure
23. Blue Orchid - The White Stripes
24. Music is my hot, hot sex - CSS
25. Everything that happens - David Byrne & Brian Eno
26. The district sleeps alone tonight - The Postal Service
27. World Spins Madly On - The Weepies
28. Life is long - David Byrne & Brian Eno
29. The Heart Song - The Bedroom Philosopher
30. Just a boy - Angus & Julia Stone
31. A Lack of Colour - Death Cab for Cutie


okay so very long list and it fills two tapes but they all deserve their place there.
so I hope you enjoy them as much as I do should you ever listen to them.
my inital quote I borrowed from the novel said American friend brought me here called The Perks of Being a Wallflower by Stephen Chbosky and I'd like to think that how Charlie felt in that moment was much like the moment I shared with my friends singing along to those songs...
"In that moment, I swear we were infinite"
That we were.



until next time,
much love xoxo

A home I should probably aknowledge for who I am

I always call Sydney my home despite not being born there and I always say I grew up there because in theory I did between the ages of 3-13 (almost 14). But then I think about the growing up I have done or at the very least getting older & my life experience. But when I think back most of this has been in the last 3 & 1/2 years that I have spent in Brisbane (since the beginning of '06. The year I spent in Newport - '05 was the biggest waste and probably the worst year even though I did meet some great people).

In the last three years I have gone through more emotions and identity sculpting situations than the rest of my life. I've met these amazing people that have opened my world to all these amazing things - different places, cultures (food, yum!), different art forms be they fine or performing arts. Of course there were the typical experiences associated with youths - parties, relationship - problems predominately, independence, exploring, experimenting with an array of contexts, sharing love with peers, so on and so forth.

But finally I am finding my niche. In this city I love to loathe. I am finding my niche. I am finding it in Brisbane. Go figure.

until next time,
much love xoxo

I wonder if I'd get along with them...

You know what I mean, those friends you make when you are in a tad of a state, I question if I'd befriend them if I was my typical self.
Thursday was yet another one of those occasions where I probably should think before I act. Before I knew it I was telling my life story to a young fellow (happened to be the guy my good friend c***blocked to try get an in with TMBGITW). So there I was spewing my life story to this poor young fellow about everything from going out, a recent party, recent male problems, sport, my favourite English club, marriage; it is quite possible I covered a good chunk of my life in a not so conscious state. The lovely thing was he was quite happy to chat back, look after me/make sure I didn't get hit by a bus and he didn't run a mile when he had to listen to the story of my life. I don't know about you but I think this one is a keeper.

Until next time,
much love
xoxo

borrowed topics

Okay so really I stole this from ash BUT I thought it was rather brilliant and something I like to do occasionally that is arranging books so their titles make flow on sentences and other such. Anyway! I thought I'd share one with you (particularly as Alice is nagging me to blog!). So yes, enjoy!

Until next time,
much love
xoxo